3rd date with Peter
It’s my 3rd date with Peter today, and he just got back to his house.
We get along pretty well, and it seems like he likes me. I friendzoned him last week saying that I’d just be looking to be friends or something casual. But he’s still trying to kiss me lol.
And I still kissed back, like whatever I’m single.
But we did some things I used to do with Ray today:
- Anaheim center for pickleball
- Red Flame for dinner
It just felt so weird, even wrong, still to do these things at places I felt were sacred and special.
But I already know it’s trashed — Ray cheated.
So I shouldn’t hold these places as sacred anymore. Yet, I still do.
Anyway, I want to get hot ASAP, fuck around, then move out so I can date more seriously. I think I really need to…
Moving out will help me have a place to invite people over to hangout and have sex. That is very key.
But boys are fickle and a waste of time. It’s also better to just be home and enjoy my family benefits.
Ugh, Ray cheating on me really messed me up.
I’m going to:
- Become hot
- Go to different cities to explore and sexplore
- Pick where I want to try living
- Move out to that place
- Taiwan trip in April
Meanwhile, I’m trying to help Jemie get pregnant for the 3rd donation baby.
Maybe I move out a few months after the Taiwan trip. By then, I’ll have more clarity. 2025 should be my move-out year.
I have no intention to date Peter seriously. He’s too calculated and self-focused. Sure, we have a good match in other ways, and he’s polite. But that overall is just not romantic for me. And I’m not super attracted to him. He is kind of ok-cute, and I’ll kiss him lol.
I’m so frazzled… I need to clean up my life.
