My Secret NotebookYesterday was a low, today I got a blow(job)My ex Ray posted on his IG story yesterday, and I was just spiraling. I really wanted to message him and get back together. I still knew I…6h ago6h ago
My Secret NotebookGetting back together would be painful and not the sameWhen I woke up this morning and thought about Ray, I thought about how his Line profile pic is his dog, while his Instagram is his face…21h ago21h ago
My Secret NotebookThe future I had been planning collapsedI found an email 2 years ago of me planning out my retirement age and what age I’d have kids with Ray.1d ago1d ago
My Secret NotebookDon’t expect hooking up to soothe a breakupMy ex said the best way to get over a breakup is to hook up. Well, I tried it for our breakup, and it sucks.1d ago1d ago
My Secret NotebookStrong urges to get back with my exI went to a “jerk off club” just now. And it sucked.1d ago1d ago
My Secret NotebookDad’s inheritance came in; all-time low in life though ($2M net worth)The check from dad’s shares sell-off (my inheritance since he passed) finally cleared at the bank. It was about $130K, and I just initiated…1d ago1d ago
My Secret NotebookRe-evaluation: What do I want out of life?It’s time to re-evaluate. I just finished an IVF cycle, and I was with Dorith for 2 weeks. We only got 1 embryo out of it, that’s still…2d ago2d ago
My Secret NotebookHave I been mistakenly comparing my relationship to others’?I’m in a vicious cycle of wishing I was with Ray again and trying to move on. I have mental clarity on why it’s not right for us to be…2d ago2d ago
My Secret NotebookNo embryos by Day 6 (IVF) — Life DownhillI’ve spend probably $35–40K on an IVF cycle, and I have no embryos to show for it. It’s Day 6, and the IVF lab has already level-setted…Sep 11Sep 11
My Secret NotebookDating and Non-dating; Next StepsThe past two days have been crazy on the “relationship” front:Sep 10Sep 10
