I remember more now. I had asked Roy about if he’d ever have kids. And he said it would depend on his partner, and he’s open to it since his friends have kids now.

That would directly lead one to believe that he’s open to dating/relationship. And he was basically saying that he didn’t think he’s a person that should be in a relationship.

That latter is something he was not transparent about. And saying things like his answer on kids, or even revealing his past (as if he thought it’d be important for someone he’d date to know), would make one think he’d be open to a relationship.

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Some people will look down on others who “care” about things. Perhaps it appears to be an overreaction.

Well, I like to judge things objectively. I can see how I even appear to myself to be in a “loftier” position when compared to someone emotionally reacting to something they care about.

Just because I “kept my cool” puts me in a different place.

But at the core of it, I don’t look down on someone caring about something passionately. I can never look down on that. I like a try hard. I admire that kind of dedication to an idea, feeling, or intention.

And if someone is going to look down on that, if someone is going to be dismissive, I don’t think we will get along very well.

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My Secret Notebook

My Secret Notebook

Quirky, curious, and philosophical Asian American gay Ivy League grad living in Southern California.