My “perfect guy” does not exist precisely because: He’s smart and intelligent, but isn’t so ambitious and driven that he’s consumed by work. And still understands how I’m smart in my way. He’s funny and witty, but still enjoys my humor and thinks I’m just as funny. He’s handsome and…

It’s hard to stop seeing Roy, and in some ways I should, to move on with life. “Move on”, as if there is anywhere to move on, anyone to move on with. Ha. Honestly, if i stop seeing him, i’ll just be going back to Grind and Jack’d for fun…

I had a dream that I was at an event, like my college reunion. A couple things happened with some young people where we met at the reunion, then disconnected, reunited, etc. And basically, there was a chart that showed each person as a color, and it was a line…

1. i want to be financially independent, with capital to not only sustain myself, but pursue and invest in my ideas/ventures 2. i want to have kids with caretakers for mundane tasks so i can sleep in too 3. i want to maintain flexibility (in schedule, commitments, etc) so i…

This is a highly qualified/conditioned statement. I was thinking “I’m better than everyone”, probably overly emphasized by the fact that my guyfriend lost $1K last night at the casino. …

Two realizations: Boy and board games. Boy. I was really turned off after learning about Roy losing $1,000 at the casino last night. Like, I’m totally fine with people doing whatever they want with their money. …

I dreamt that my mom and I were at church, and we were chatting during service activities. Then, we were the mall, and we were supposed to go back to church for lunch, but then I couldn’t find her. And it was past lunch. I found some of my cousins…

It takes me a solid 8 months to fall in love, like the most real kind of falling in love, based on consistently meeting someone over time. Sure, I’ve “fallen in love” within less than a week, but that’s before really getting to know someone over time. With Roy and…

I went to the Getty for the first time today with Ku, Amber, and Sydney. Then afterwards, we went to Midoh restaurant where we met up with Jon. Overall, the hangout leaves me feeling wanting for more. It’s not really fulfilling socially for me. Where’s the deeper connection, the discovery…