Complacent after Ivy League graduation?

I remember thinking that if I didn’t get into an Ivy League school, and that if the best school I got into was UC Berkeley, I would’ve felt like I didn’t yet prove myself and need to keep trying extra hard, as burned out as I already was.

Which makes me think now: Since I’ve already graduated from an Ivy League, that’s sort of my eternal stamp of approval to lean on. Even if I just laze out and mess everything else up, I can say that I went from nothing to Ivy League grad.

I say this with as much honesty as possible because I used to try to block out these thoughts so I didn’t make myself proud, but I think it’s fine to just be honest for the sake of true self-reflection.

I wonder. If I didn’t even go to college, perhaps I would’ve tried even harder to “make a name for myself”.

My ambitions are too short-sided and my stamina low to really do big things.

I’ve been sitting on projects for almost 2 months, and if I really want to break through, I need to freakin’ get to work.

Sure, Ivy grad status has saved me from low self-esteem, but if I ever want to really do something meaningful or of impact, I need to expand and grow out of where I am now. I need to recognize my need for a lot of rest, my need for a lot of media input, and somehow hack that to still produce content for my goals.