I don’t even want to test-live in LA anymore

I was going to at least do 1–2 weeks of test-living in LA. Now, I don’t even want to anymore.

The people I sort of made friends with are all distancing themselves:

1. Denny G — Designer who had a crush on me, I friendzoned, and he’s not distancing himself.
2. K-Chi — reality show celebrity clearly always sitting away from me or placing themselves to not interact with me.
3. Kwok — seemed interested in me, but I just stopped interacting.

I’m socially fatigued and would rather just focus on my personal/sexual/dating life instead of over-socializing. I will maintain connections, but that’s it.

I don’t get sex or dating out of socializing because it’s too risky to mix it with social groups. Sure I got gropy with Adem last night. But we all know it can only be messy. Someone (probably me) is bound to get kicked out if feels get involved at all.

Adem has admitted to stealing social groups away from former lovers.

This is just how things go.

I’m just as over LA as I was before I thought about reconnecting with gay world.

It’s fun to meet new guys, but with no deeper connections or meaningful friendships, it’s all so vain and empty.

I should just focus on developing my own friend group(s) and leave it only that, only only that.

Here’s the new line-up:

1. Linnsey: connection to broader gays, many things I like about him. Will show up/stay connected.
2. Asef: a standalone connection that is willing to join more social stuff I think. Will at some point invite.