I’m afraid I will die never doing anything important

My Secret Notebook
1 min readJan 3, 2020

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Sure, I went to an Ivy League and was school president. But that’s in the past and at a local level. It’s not something world changing or advancing for mankind. And I have this recurring fear that I will end up never doing anything of magnitude and significance.

I wonder if this fear is evolutionary. Because for me to do something and step up would ultimately benefit humanity, right?

But at the end of the day, I don’t know how to overcome the following:

Inevitable laziness/tiredness after my motivation runs dry

This is fueled by:

  1. ENTP personality that gets bored and wants to do new things all the time
  2. Weaker body that needs rest and heal time
  3. Desire to relax/enjoy things here and there

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My Secret Notebook
My Secret Notebook

Written by My Secret Notebook

Quirky, curious, and philosophical Asian American gay Ivy League grad living in Southern California.

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