I’m more superficial than I’d like to think

When I think back on my exes (because my friend Gregg was saying the pain will be less in the future), I only ever really think about the hot exes. The ones that weren’t as hot, I barely ever think about.

Even though I did love Garland, he wasn’t as hot as Ray. Ray smelled good, great kisser, let me fuck him (it was so good) bareback all the time, and was cute.

Yes, Ray cheated on me, and we’ll never be together, but the sex was great. And he was cute/hot!

Same with Bryan Loo. He was hot but just a terrible match. We weren’t ever official, but I’d sleep with him again.

I think physical attraction is #1 when finding a match, or even just a FWB.

This means I truly need to be hot.

When I’m not hot, like recently, I don’t even have as much libido.

I do value a good, stable relationship with a good person, but I think I need this person to be very attractive physically to me. Period.