I’m too educated to find a match.

The more I look at other guys, especially more attractive gay guys, and the way they type or their credentials, the more I’m realizing that even outwardly accomplished gays often can’t hold a candle to my intelligence/education.

Sure, there are plenty of guys much smarter than I am, but whenever I read “just average” writing and see “just above average” educational background, I compare it to my many accomplishments in writing, speech, piano, education, etc (especially with my Ivy League degree), and it’s just very off.

I know it sounds cocky and all, but I do want a partner that matches my credentials! I want someone who can back me up completely when it comes to adequacy — taking over things like rental management, helping kids with homework, or just being competent at stuff.

I know I am VERY willing to bend on this for someone else who has great strengths in other areas. But it should be a matter of being a good “match”. Maybe they supplement me in other ways.

At the end of the day, maybe that sort of unconditional, sacrificial love isn’t the best for romance. Even I will feel bad if I’m being a perpetual burden to someone (I know some people like to take care of others; I would appreciate it and accept it, someone selfishly, but still take care of them in other ways).

But I keep wanting more. And I think I need a very capable person to be able to embark on these “more” endeavors. It’s just too crazy to expect a lot.. but I’m really fine holding out. I can find balance as a single person again. I loved it.