Movie Date Grabbed by Cock

I just went on a movie date with Adem. We had Chinese food and watched Mickey 17. It was all his idea, and I ended up paying. Was I scammed?

Lol but he often pays for stuff, like him inviting me to his house to have ribs the last time we hung out. I did bring fruits though hm..

Anyway, during the movie I grabbed his hand, and he liked it.

Afterwards, he did some hugging and touching outside my house, and then we swordfought a bit, where he was dry humping me while standing up and turning me around. And he grabbed our cocks, and we rubbed them together a bit. We kissed each others’ necks.

Then we said bye lol.

It was a light, fun, and sexy hangout that turned out to be a bit datey. I just had a lot of fun chatting over dinner. I was laughing my head off. Adem is funny.

Afterwards, we exchanged a few funny texts. But it reminded me that he was always bad at texting. Just some funny texts for a bit, and then radio silence until it was time to hangout again. It’s because he, admittedly, has a very packed social calendar. This weekend, he was my only hangout.

I like it that way though. I have social fatigue and just don’t want to be hanging out that much right now.

I also remember something he said today, “I’m physically attracted to you.” The fact that he said physically is the key here. What’s lying behind that note is that he isn’t attracted to me personality wise enough to date me. Whether that is intellectually or whatnot. Even though we have fun.

But that’s all fine. I already knew we couldn’t date, which is why things didn’t work out the first time. And he even admits he isn’t dating right now because he still likes the guy he crushed on before and is just now getting his libido back (been 6 months since they had no contact).

And I said I wasn’t dating until May.

So it’s been clear that this is just side random stuff.

He’s also cheated and attempted homewrecking in the past.

This may feel like wasting my time, but I still have fun when we hangout, he keeps me connected to gay world, and there’s not too much harm right?

I think the fact that I was sensitive to him being joke-mean to me at a game night made him pull back hard. But he’s still willing to hangout, probably because he is attracted to me just physically lol, so I fucking take what I can get!

Either way, the touchy parts will probably disappear once we actually get back into dating other people.

Linnsey actually said he has a deep crush on me. I don’t think Adem used that word. And Linnsey I think has better character and consistency than Adem. And better match personality wise. But Adem’s body is more attractive.

Lol.

Whatever, I’m not dating seriously yet. 1.5 months until them. And this week I’m quitting my side gig! Which will free me up to for more fun side projects! I’m excited!

I’m also going to try reining in spending. Sure, I want to enjoy things, but I don’t need to go too overboard anymore.

Have to work on my body and health more!