My ex won’t stop torturing me

I want to have sex. I want to fall in love. I want to have a fulfilled, happy life.

But my fucking ex won’t leave me alone.

Ray is detained in Japan for getting into a fight, and he put me as his emergency contact. I have the US Embassy, his boss, and his new boy reaching out to me.

And now I have this unsolved mystery swirling in my brain. My brain can’t just leave these kinds of mysteries alone. Like, when is he coming back? Will he get fired? Is he broke? Will his dog be okay?

Sure, his life is his own, and we aren’t together anymore. But now that I’m roped in with all this information, I can’t help but naturally wonder. It’s a cliffhanger…

I want to move on and live my life. I want to let this go.

I said no matter what happens, I’ll still love and care for him (when we broke up). But key word is “happens”. And I found out about things that “happened” past tense. And what happened, changes things.

He betrayed me.

He used me.

He lied to me.

So no, I’ll never be with him again. And I’m not here to parent him and baby him anymore. Does he really think after he back-stabbed me and betrayed me, that I should help him out of the good of my heart? I’m not that good of a person. And I have my own priorities. Why the fuck would or should I prioritize him?? He must be out of his mind.