No Embryos by Day 6 (IVF) — Life Downhill

My Secret Notebook
1 min readSep 11, 2024

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I’ve spend probably $35–40K on an IVF cycle, and I have no embryos to show for it. It’s Day 6, and the IVF lab has already level-setted with me that they’re probably not going to get any embryos this time.

They’re giving the developing embryos another day, but that’s it.

It’s so fucking disappointing. This year has been one of the worst years of my life.

  1. My dad died.
  2. Ray and I broke up (3 year relationship).
  3. Spent $30–40K on a failed IVF cycle.
  4. Laid off/went to ER.

My dad went to the ER twice this year. I went once.

I think the stress from being laid off, going to the ER, overworking, and my dad dying probably made my sperm quality go to fucking shit.

Having stress, even if it comes with some more money, if fucking pointless if you can’t take care of everything else in your life.

Sure, I’ll collect my final bonus from my second job. But I think I’m done done after that. I even want to just fully quit everything. Fucking fuck it.

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My Secret Notebook
My Secret Notebook

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Quirky, curious, and philosophical Asian American gay Ivy League grad living in Southern California.

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