Rethinking life after visiting high school

These kids not caring about school have me rethinking life.

It felt so impossible to break out of the “caring about school and college admissions” mindset when I was a student. But some of them are outright like, “I didn’t care about xyz” in a PANEL PRESENTATION.

That’s insane.

But they’re honest and true to themselves. And I fucking loved it.

They don’t care about the system, and they own up to it.

I’ve been refreshed by that and been wanting to be like that too. It’s easy to get caught in the system. And even after quitting my side gig, my boss-boss sent a very unthankful message announcing my leaving followed by a warm one announcing a different person who is moving to a different team, thanking them for a bunch of things.

I think he fucking hates me and it shows LOL. I don’t care for him either. And maybe I will just purposely drag this out and not come back if I even get a personal leave approved. Fuck that lol.

But yeah, opening up my main gig’s laptop for work, seeing a flood of “improtant” emails reminded me of how artificial a lot of these things are. Corporate work, corporate dynamics… they are all man-made things that pretend certain goals are important. But really, I’ve forgotten what is truly important to me…

I mean, really. What is truly important?

My health? My family? (whoever’s left) My friends? My personal hobbies/enjoyments?

Yeah, I think it’s my personal enjoyments. Not this bullshit corporate shit.

Sure I’ll get by, but I’m doing just that — getting by. I’ll milk the fuck out of my remaining sick days in my side gig.