Should I chase beauty?

After reminiscing on the joy and innocence of improving on the piano as a kid, alone at home, with no pressure and with limited musical knowledge, I though about what if I were to learn more music theory — jazz music theory — and become a music writer.

It can be a bit too solitary for my current tastes, but maybe it can be less serious and more fun and explorative.

That’s because I’ve found jazz music, especially improve jazz that I’ve heard on the sax, to be something to profoundly beautiful and impressive — when done well of course

Maybe I become a jazz musician/writer? It takes so much skill and practice, maybe not. But I love it, and I find the music beautiful.

So I thought, should I re-orient and chase beauty?

I already kind of have been chasing fun — playing BOTC, hook-ups, travels, and first-time drug experiments.

What would chasing beauty look like instead?

Visual arts like painting, written arts like poetry, musical arts like writing and improv and singing. Museums, photography, workshops, exhibits, and displays. Trying to create beautiful things, sharing them, and iterating.

That does sound found.

But I remember that I actually want fun. I do combine creation and beauty into my fun.

But eventually perhaps it’ll just balance itself out anyway. The fact that I’m thinking about this probably will subconsciously (or consciously) drive my decisions toward some more beauty-oriented paths.

I guess, we’ll see. No rush. :)