The Things That Bring The Most Joy

My Secret Notebook
2 min readJan 5, 2025

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ChatGPT suggested I “simplify by identifying the few things that bring you the most joy and committing deeply to them.”

This was after I fed it some of my reflections and blog posts.

I feel I am starting to do this, and there have been some results.

Here are what bring me the most joy:

  1. Blood on the Clocktower
  2. Relaxing at home, watching shows/movies
  3. Pickleball
  4. Eating good food (at home, or out)
  5. Journaling/Introspecting
  6. Talking with people who are interested in me, who make good/deep convos, building deeper connections
  7. Good blowjob from my FWB
  8. Playing with cute guys
  9. Exploring/learning new things

I just got back from driving down to Escondido to play a full day of BOTC. And it was sooo fun. People also made comments of how good I was at the game and how much they respected me. I won all the games I played — I think 5. I don’t usually win them all, and I don’t care to, but I made good deductions, and people trusted me.

BOTC is my absolute favorite thing to do right now. It is where I feel the most natural, and where I have the most fun. And I appreciate and love the connections I’ve made through the game.

The Escondido group is so nice, and I’ve developed good rapport after playing with them 3 times. I’m so thankful .

I’m going to Australia Clocktower Con in July this year. This is me deeply committing and investing in my favorite thing.

The other stuff definitely also bring me joy, but I don’t think I’m as fixated, engaged, and passionate about them. They’re more like core interests, pleasures, and “daily” joys.

I think I want to date this year, after my trip to Asia, where I’ll probably mess around a bit. Or maybe even a bit before.

I’ll take it as it comes.

I really do want to love, but I also don’t want to spend time with someone that isn’t a great match.

Either way, I will definitely live more in the moment this year, and really use my gut to evaluate if something is what I truly enjoy and want to continue or not. Do what feels right. I’ll give things more chances, but after enough chances/tries, don’t waste more time if it’s not doing it!

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My Secret Notebook
My Secret Notebook

Written by My Secret Notebook

Quirky, curious, and philosophical Asian American gay Ivy League grad living in Southern California.

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