Roy’s poor communication is causing me to harbor resentment. The fact that he was “blaming” me for being confused when he was the one not clear in answering my questions PLUS him getting antsy with attitude when I explain it, is really giving me PTSD. Reminding me of all the…

Just found myself saying “I’m bored” I’m bored with my guy, my work, people, and… life? Guy: He’s not really constantly thinking of new things or entertaining new ideas. He isn’t the best conversationalist and isn’t great at trying to see things from other points of views. Honestly, overall, he…

I just found myself saying this to myself. It was a subconscious Freudian at best and a cognitive utterance at worst. In the moment, I was thinking about a couple of things: Babies. How it is going to take so long before I can have surrogate babies (to pay for…

It feels like it’s “about me” for two reasons: One, I don’t point out how the fact that we have to stop discussing things that range from not a big deal to very important because you don’t like where it’s going. Aren’t we always stopping and avoiding communication because of…

I think what makes me “demanding” in relationships is that I get fixated on things. And if that thing becomes a character trait of a partner or person of interest or just platonic friend even, then I can get really anal about it. But the question comes down to: is…

I think it’s time to be healthy again.

Just celebrated my dad’s birthday, and as we were eating cake, they talked about how they never celebrated birthdays until their teens (and 20s for my aunt). Buttercream was expensive and not even available in Taiwan till later; only butter cakes (they said). They would only get 1 apple a year, which they took on field trip to “flex” lol. My aunt’s cousin (mom side) had 4 younger brothers and he was supposed to bring the apple home after the trip to share (he had to bring it there to have face lol).

It’s been almost 2 days of me processing an disagreement with Roy, and I’m starting to have a clearer idea of what I still am feeling stressed. I feel like I let my guard down and was completely vulnerable with Roy, but he came at me without waiting or asking…

I was reading summaries of Oliver Burkeman’s book “Four Thousand Weeks: Time Management For Mortals” lol. And he emphasized how spare time should be spent for leisure (super paraphrased). It got me thinking about what I want to do for leisure, and I want to list those out: Travel: Exploration…